On play: My Sacrifice by Creed

I brushed off the inconvenience and spoke my thoughts to E last night. It comforts me to have E around because, E knows what I’m driving at and actively urges me to question my thoughts. I often think twice before confiding in  anyone. This is as a result of my early bad experience which involves a very personal letter being passed around, to my great distaste. Sigh, I have gone through, deep down afraid that I am being judged. I have withdrawn myself from activities, refrained from interacting “unnecesarily” – besides sport and study. Because of this fear, I judge excessively, hypocritical? Is this not the typical “bully” behaviour that we hear of, instilling fear because we are fearful ourselves.

The bravest people are those who aren’t afraid to be judged, those who wore bangs through out their school years while other girls compared how long their fringes were? Those who screamed to their hearts’ content in happiness, cried and wailed like there’s no tomorrow when they are sad, those whose faces burn up and throw themselves against the wall when they are angry. Because we aspire to be brave, we must not be afraid to be judged, we must embrace what we have, what we already are. We smoothen out the rough patches in us to make ourselves better people, work hrad because it’s simply and purely for the greater good of ourselves.

Dedication to self likened to how companies dedicate themselves to profit-making, without distraction, armed with a clear goal – The bravest people are brave because they know the end in mind, they thread murky waters, wave their arms in the temporal darkness , yet all the time with the eyes fixed with the distant goal, the most coveted prize of self-worth and satisfaction.

I find myself swaying each time with the wind. Discipline and confidence is the mantra. Therefore, before school starts I’d like to sat down a few requirements that shall faciliate my growth as a person, intellectually and character-wise.

1) Read a book every 2 weeks

- What Do You Not Know

- Plato

2) Swim 12 laps a week

3) Go on daily if not once in 2 days ( Evening jogs)  At least 20 min each time followed by strengthening exercises or gym – To be enforced STRONGLY when staying hall

4) Start on any piece of homework on the day of issue itself

5) Visit the gym once a week

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